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Currently Listening Infinity on High - Deluxe Limited Edition By Fall Out Boy see related

We Kidnap and Ravage

Haha. So I haven't updated my xanga in MONTHS. Wow. That last entry was sad and depressing. Ok, so David and I have been working things out since April and have been doing really well. We are taking things very slowly and things are great. I am still a little crazy and neurotic and I freak out a lot (just ask Vanessa), but I always end up feeling ok about everything. It's hard to believe it's been two months already since we let things happen between us again. The last trip I took to VA  in May was amazingly awesome. I learned how to skip stones (very well), I learned that I am amazing at making churros (probably because I am Mexican, lol), and Virginia is for Lovers shirts don't exist in my size. I absolutely love Williamsburg. It is so beautiful. The last day I was in VA, David took me there and we went to this amazing shop called the Cheese Shop where you could order a sandwich and buy a little bottle of wine for two and eat out on their patio. It was sooo amazing. We were outside eating and talking and then it started to rain a little. I have to say that it was one of the most romantic moments of my life. A lot of great moments like that happened and I am very happy that i got to go back to VA and have a different experience than I did the first time I was there.

In other news, I have had to leave Pacific Records because I really need a job that will enable me to move out of my parents house...so in the mean time I am looking for a new job! Hooray! It's all very annoying and tedious. We will see what happens.

Lastly...I went to Disneyland on Friday! It was awesome because we got to preview the new Finding Nemo Underwater submarine water voyage ride. All of these imagineers were there to see people's reactions before it opened today. It was really cool. I have never spent so much time in Disneyland in my entire life. We got there early for the rope drop at like 9am in the morning and did not leave until 12am. We spent 15 hours there. I felt so hungover the next day. LOL. I have to say though that Pirate's Lair is pretty awesome. It's much better than regular Tom Sawyer's Island. There's treasure and scary shit in there! Like holy shit! That treasure in the little cove, when you touch it, a pirate like jumps out at you! It was the scariest shit ever! It was sooooo funny when I touched it the second time and this lady we didn't know walked past at the most terrible moment and she screamed when it jumped out at her. Haha. Good times. Sorry lady. I have to say though that the best ride of the day was Splash Mountain. WTF was up with that crazy water bomb that drenched us randomly in the middle of the ride?! I was really wet and the ride had barely just begun. Thanks for making me sit in the front row Laura and Vanessa. California Adventure was fun that day too because nobody was there. It's kind of sad. However, we did see Goofy with his Hawaiian shirt! Hooray! Oh! and at Disneyland, Vanessa and I got an awesome pic with Chip. Dale walked away, that Bastard. I've always liked Chip better anyway.

That was a lot to read...Fall Out Boy show in a few weeks!!

"We pilage and plunder and rifle and loot / Drink up me hearties yo ho! / We kidnap and ravage and don't give a hoot / Drink up me hearties yo ho!"

 Melissa

We're falling apart to half time...

I feel like shit shit shit shit. Let's recap:

In the past two months I've met someone, started dated him, got into a relationship with him, and broken up with him! Yay! I am officially an ex-girlfriend. Life is wonderful. I really don't understand the point of relationships anyway. The other person inevitably stops feeling the same way that they did when they first met you. It's all fucking bullshit. And now all I want to do is make the other person feel as badly as I do. Have you ever felt like you are falling apart at the seams and all you want is to not exist anymore just so that you don't have to think and pretend to care anymore? I think that's why sleeping is so awesome. Too bad it doesn't come so easily anymore.

Things I've learned about myself in the past two months:

1. I am incredibly jealous and neurotic.

2. I try very hard to make someone like me when I know they don't care anymore...but I think I already knew that.

3. I care a lot more than I want to.

4. There was a reason why I was afraid to get into relationships...because of this exact moment.

My first broken heart...how cute and horribly nauseating.

Check out the new Fall Out Boy song: It's the only thing that makes me happy right now. It's only half the song though...the other part is Pete screaming about ice-cream and shit.

We take sour sips
From life's lush lips
We shake shake shake the hips
In relationships
Stop by this disaster town
You'll put your eyes to the sun and say "I know"
You're only blinding to keep back what the clouds are hiding
And we might have started singing just a little soon
We're throwing the stones in a glass room.

Whoa ah oh we're so miserable and stunning
Whoa ah oh lovesongs so genuinely cunning

We keep the beat,
With your blistered feet
We bullet the words at the mockingbirds, singing
Slept through the weekend
And dream
Sinking with the melody of the kiss of eternity
Get house calls from a pharmacist, saying "how you been"?
We might of said good byes just a little soon
(Somehow this disaster town)
Our beliefs of kissing beats over this room

-- "The Carpal Tunnel of Love"

I wish he had never even asked me out...this was inevitable. I don't even think that's true.

Sing until your lungs give out...

A Reflection...I am so emo sometimes...